Backing Slowly Away from Hell: Post-Traumatic Growth and Deconversion

"Sometimes you can only find heaven by backing slowly away from hell." Carrie Fisher quotes are a great start to any blog post, amirite? Seriously though, I've got that quote up on my dorm room wall in red-orange pen, complete with a grinning skull doodle that I like to think Carrie would've appreciated. It's there … Continue reading Backing Slowly Away from Hell: Post-Traumatic Growth and Deconversion

The Allostatic Load of Christianity: How Toxic Theology Can Stress The Shit Out of Us

We'll start with a 2-min science lesson: Allostatic load is what happens when we're always running from the bear There's this thing that neuropscyhologists talk about sometimes called allostasis. Now, this is gonna get a little scientific, but bear with me! I'll break it down for ya. With bears. When we meet life's challenges, our bodies lose energy. … Continue reading The Allostatic Load of Christianity: How Toxic Theology Can Stress The Shit Out of Us

Terrific People Taught Me Terrible Things: Why That Place of Worship Didn’t Have to Mean It to Hurt You

Hey there, everyone! Hope your 2016's been warm and furthering this far. It's been a busy, draining start for me, hence why this article is out a little later than usual. In the weeks since I last posted, I've been wrestling with a near-accusatory thought: maybe I shouldn't be blogging about my ex-Christian experiences (experiences?) if my church … Continue reading Terrific People Taught Me Terrible Things: Why That Place of Worship Didn’t Have to Mean It to Hurt You

“Mad Survivor, Bad Survivor”: Why I’m a Grinch This Christmas and Not Fucking Sorry About It

According to some people, I'm not surviving right. I should forgive my ex-church family, because they meant well. I should suck it up and make peace with Christianity, because it's not fair to associate your trauma with ALL Christians. I should stop being rude to people at church. I should be a Good Survivor, like Tumblr user kielbasanova brilliantly laid out...

Take the Red Pill: A Letter to Questioning Christians

Dear Questioning Christian, Scared Christian, Queer Christian, Abused, Disordered, and Traumatized Christian, and "Christian": Take the red pill. I'm Max, I swallowed the red pill, and I'm not gonna lie, it kind of tasted like ass on the way down. And depending on where you are in this journey, this can be absolutely terrifying and overwhelming. It might also resonate with a voice inside you. And if you decide to take the red pill? If you ever think you might want to but don't know how? We are here. I am here.